What I learned from the last school year

When will this end?

Just last month, May. The school year had ended for the University I am studying at. But, for Public schools where my brothers are in, they haven’t.

But yesterday as the enrollment for the next school year started, I thought to myself, when will the pandemic end? How can we end it? And, can we?

I can’t answer that question and no one can. But I know we can help each other to get things done. Like get vaccinated and staying at home. Being responsible and caring for others. One act of kindness can be a big help to some.

Maybe next month, the school year 2021-2022 will start for the University of Saint Louis. I am not sure if I still want to continue studying in the Blended Learning modality. I have asked a friend and they have changed modalities from Modular to Blended Learning.

Blended Learning is a combination of full online classes and Face-to-face classes or Traditional learning if approved by the IATF or local government. The online component will use synchronous (real-time) and asynchronous (accessible anytime, subject to availability of internet connection) modalities.

Students shall pay P800.00 more or less for the use of the Commercial Learning Management System platform, which the University is subscribed to for a year.

I still sticked with Blended Learning. I picked it again to give it one last shot and see if I can still cope up with the style. Students have different learning capabilities.

I have to admit I found the last school year very hard. I failed classes and got very low grades. My final average would be lower than before. I was not myself.

I ended up with an 82.36 General Average. Not what I expected.

The student in me left the Earth. Lol. From a Blue Card Awardee back when there was no Covid-19 Pandemic yet, to a lazy, hard headed, failed teen now.

I won’t blame it all to the virus or the things that is happening in the world, but to me. I am the one that should be ashamed. The one that should have been more responsible

Why can’t I do this like anyone else?

How can I be different. Am I?

Some students are awardees and others are contented with what they have. Why am I not? How can I be contented if I haven’t done anything that is worth being happy.

I ain’t grade conscious, not like before. Time to change mindset? Nope, I won’t. I will live by this principle for as long as I can.

I am a life-long learner after all.

I mean look at me. Look at that picture above. I was happy, I was contented. That was taken on February 21 of 2020. Just after my first ever Recognition Day in USL.

This is not the first time I felt like this. Feeling sad and depressed, hopeless and constantly in an urge to just sleep all day. I was this kid all the time.

Standards really testing me out huh? I think it’s time to speak up. Have a voice and let yourself be in the middle. Not in front, not even in the back. Nowhere else!

It all started when I was in 7th Grade. Math was a hurdle for me. I was demoted from the top section. The first ever Advanced Science Class and I won’t even have that title when I graduate.

I knew from that day forward, I shouldn’t be that student anymore. I could have improved and I did. I excelled when I entered to a regular section at Grade 8. Became a happier and contented student.

Just like I ever wanted. Until today.

I realized it wasn’t me who keeps me happy, who cheers me up, who lets me be contented. It wasn’t me who decides in my fate or who knows what I should become.

It is outside. Out there. Waking you up. Letting you change, be guided and happy. Makes you awake and sometimes makes you feel peace.

Please don’t let fear and anxiety take over your head and make you hate everything you see. Everything you do wrong. Change can happen over a nightfall.

Happy Weekend to all!